There’s a line between allowing yourself to become overly reliant on certain comforts and being a silly masochist.
I once knew a guy who never let himself eat a full meal, not because he was afraid of gaining weight or anything, but because he didn’t want to let himself get used to the feeling of not being hungry, since he couldn’t be certain he’d be able to eat tomorrow.
I get that, to a degree. I get that you don’t want to let yourself become too reliant on something that someone else can control and take away from you. If there was only one person in the world who supplied food, that might be valid. But you can maintain a sense of self-reliance and internal fortitude without living a life of misery.
The thing you’re working hard for is a good life. Don’t throw that life away just to prove you can earn it.
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